hes so cool i wanna be liked by him

He's such a cool person. Background info, there was this new guy in my class. he came mid-February (how ironic, he came on valentines day). I'm not popular, but I'm liked by most ppl. I'm not actually that likable, I just act how I think likable ppl act. Also, at the time, I just acted really nice. anyways, he was new and I thought "when I was new last year no one talked to me so I'm gonna make sure he's gonna feel welcome and he's gonna love this class." mind you, I was on a "mission" to make the 7 ppl in class that I noticed always look sad when ppl have fun feel better. so far, I've befriended 4/7, and 2/3 of the last ones tagged along with the ppl I befriended but I'm not really friends with them. we have a seating routine, but we switched mid-march. My 2 close friends were farther away than I thought, but I was gonna make the best of it. He sits next to me now along with a girl that I don't really like (she doesn't shut up and shows me her S/H scars almost daily for no reason). Let's call him Aladdin. he doesn't talk much in class unless he's with his friends. also, he doesn't have any social media so no one other than his friend's talks to him much. he's a really likable person tho. it caught my eye. also, he's really good at drawing, so he naturally joins the "art kids" group. surprisingly, the art kids are all my really close friends. so the group was always (names aren't important btw) Erica next to Mohamed, Maya next to erica at the edge of the seat, Aladdin just turning around and moving a bit, and me between Aladdin and Maya the group evolved into "Art kids plus Mariam(my name)". I can't draw for shit if you couldn't already tell. we started talking more often, and he'd shown me his work. we were a good class, so we got free periods often. I play volleyball so I always played outside with a couple of friends. he was amazing at basketball so he usually played but he only had like 2 people playing with him. eventually, he sometimes joined us for a bit. let's talk about Aladdin himself for a bit before I continue. He's a really nice person. like really really nice. I usually wear rings and lose them a lot. one day we were being stupid in class and I think I stole his eraser. he then took a ring of mine and flung it. I later went to look for it since I really liked that ring. usually, people laugh and let me look. he got up and started looking on the floor with me. I then gave up and thought id find it later (which I did). he didn't. he kept looking on the entire floor. I told him its ok and smiled but he gave me an apologetic look and looked for another minute. also, he isn't anything red flag-y. I know it's the bare minimum but it's still a surprise to me. not sexist, racist, homophobic, and f-boy, or anything else. his smiles are also really cool. He's just really cool. He's great at all sports, tall, energetic, good at drawing, bold, ok sense of style, religious, kind, smart, handsome, funny, and I could go on. He's really cool. I feel like myself when I'm around him. He's the best. back to the story. one day we're all playing volleyball and the guys left to play soccer. I'm not the best at sports that include running (basically most sports other than volleyball) since I have asthma and also I have a weird joint in my leg that makes me run weirdly. never liked running anyway. he was playing with 3 other people, so it's not the ideal number for soccer. he came and asked if I and others wanted to join. I wanted to join but I got scared so I asked a girl in my class to come with me. I was on his team. I suck really badly, but I can kick. I missed a lot, but o gave him a really nice pass once and he got a goal. it was great. the funny thing is he said was the one that talked after it. not important. I walked near the goal once, and the goalkeeper(one of his friends) said "YK, he's attracted to you". I think I went bright red. thank god I had my mask on. I didn't believe him at first. mind you, I have horrible self-esteem and I had 2 ppl do those "I like you... haha you thought" pranks on me. I thought about it, and I can kinda see it now. I asked the same guy about it later and asked if he was lying(self-esteem I'm telling you) and he said "nope I'm not lying. he said he kinda likes you tho. he's not sure but he still likes you." I couldn't care less this is better than nth. I think I screamed in the bathroom after that. that week, we randomly got into origami. IDK how that happens. He's really good at it, so I usually watched him. I wasn't embarrassed at watching him since his hands are really pretty and they looked really elegant and cool making origami. he gave me like every creation he made. I've never felt better. I have 3 hung up on my wall rn. I'm not so good, but I made him a cat and a dinosaur. he smiled. he said they were really good even tho they weren't. he looked really happy. I was really happy. almost done keep reading! As I mentioned he doesn't have social media (not an issue w me I'm terrified of texting people) we obvi don't talk. yea that's wrong we talked like twice but it was me wishing him a happy birthday and him sending me photos of his cat (he showed me a couple and I told him to send me as many as he could). I take photos of cool stuff happening in class. we had a free period (the teacher left cuz he was getting a quick drink) and he and his friends decided to jokingly sword fight with sticks and rulers. I took this one really good photo of him leaning on the stick and laughing. it was actually really really good and cool looking. anyone would want a cool photo of themselves so i wanted to send it to him. this was yesterday night. i attached the photo and wrote a bit for the email (something along the lines of "you looked really really cool so i thought u might want this :) if you don't like photos of u being taken i can delete them. OK BYE BYE GOOD NIGHT - Mariam <3"). it took me 2 hours to click send. i had a whole breakdown on whether i should or not. the only reason i sent it is because I've been recently yelling at myself for not saying/doing stuff I've wanted to do because i was scared. like complimenting him at a right time and not because im an idiot. he doesn't check his email so im still waiting for a response. im terrified and i really do i like him. hes so caring too. im gonna shut up. thanks for listening and please give me advice. bye bye

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Mariam<3 Crushes April 15, 2022 at 7:16 pm 0 0