im obsessed

im literally obsessed with my crush. i searched up his mom on instagram just so i could see a picture of him. i dont like not being around him. i get jealous when he seems to be too close to another girl to just be friends. idk if im crazy or if this is normal. but he is just almost perfect. he is cute, we have several things in common, and he is just really really nice to everyone. he is basically my dream guy. ofc he will never like me bc i never talk to anyone (i have social anxiety), especially not him bc i cant even make eye contact with him without turning red as a **** tomato. plus im not even that pretty. im kind of crazy. i have **** adhd and social anxiety. and he happens to be extremely christian while im an atheist. there are other girls he is friends with that are prettier, smart (i will not say smarter i happen to be one of the smartest in my class second to a male almost a year older than me), popular, and nice. the only thing that makes me think otherwise is that im a leo and he is an aires and they are supposed to be really compatible like basically soulmate. however, zodiacs dont guarantee anything. i just rlly rlly hope he likes me bc when i get a crush on someone it lasts for years (ive literally only had one other crush that started in 2nd and ended in 7th). i already lost my bff at the beginning of last school year and it still hurts really **** bad. friends for 5 years. i do not need another heartbreak so i will not ever. i mean EVER. tell him my feelings. even if i am obsessed. i will let him do that. my heart is protected now. also he has a lot of friends and they make up most of my classes and im friends with several of them so i rlly cant. protecting my heart forever.

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anonymous Crushes April 19, 2023 at 10:27 pm 0 0