Young love

I love you. but what are the costs of loving an obsessive person who only wants you temporarily? You never thought of consequences, maybe you did but didn't care. You fitted the beauty standard and you were an insanely rich city person. I mean you have a private doctor from an expensive hospital. You have great taste in music and you like alt-rock for most of it. It stung me to figure you took our friend away from me because you were jealous. You were good at sports, surfing, and drumming. Bothers me that you had to mock me in school to get me to talk to you. Were you that desperate? You wanted to look so smart and kind on the surface. For the record, I know you weren't. I remember you'd talk about me until my roommate goes nuts about me not going to school for 3 days because I was sick for 2. When in reality you and your friends love to skip class. By then, you start doing pointless things, like copying my act when I'm holding hands with my friends. Following me to the lobby, to the goddamn store nearby, sitting up parallel on purpose whilst your friends leave us alone, watching me, asking me little stupid questions that are pointless if you don't like them and your little whore friends who tried setting us up in school plays. I in the long run was scared, so I'd made up with my old friend to date pretend. But somehow, you knew and still mock me. I wasn't stupid, and neither was our friend who left me. I'd try to hint about you to them, but it hurts more when she hinted back it really happened but does not confirm what's going on. You made them scared, that even they called me when I found out and tried to be nicer after. You didn't go to school when I had my birthday. Maybe just a coincidence, but your little friend who never talks to me starts putting up insta stories when they never even put out yours. How do you feel? Proud enough? Are you playing with my feelings? Nobody knows I loved you. And I mean nobody.

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anonymous Crushes May 17, 2022 at 3:13 am 2 0