What do I even do anymore

I will admit I knew some girls who I thought where absolutely beautiful and they are. At one time I would have said they where tens. Though one or two years ago I met someone who was absolutely the most beautiful person I ever seen before. I mean the girls I thought where beautiful before where really more like 7s or 8s she was a straight 10/10 or higher. For obvious reasons I won’t go into too much detail on what she looks like but I so wanna. After my only two crushes I ever really had I have had interests but not crushes. My last one was a rough one that started amazing but I went off the deep end and she found someone else eventually though I think she liked me at first. But this is a long story. My first crush even I was very young. You can say that you can’t fall in love at a young age but I was in love with her at the time and she in fact still holds a special place in my heart even though I have not seen her in probably like ten years now. Anyways I digress. Back to this girl she was so beautiful I mean she did not even compare to many super models they say people don’t really look like that it’s photo shop and layers of make up and all that. But she was absolutely unbelievable I had to sometimes realize I was not even dreaming. Now she did probably have a lot of make up on but man she was hot. I mean really hot. On top of that she was extremely sweet and very nice. She actually had the same name as one of my old crushes but she’s a million times better. Sorry! I’m off topic ahain. I find myself thinking about her more and more now. I think I like her a lot but after this COVID bullshit started I wonder if I will ever see her again. She is so intimidating though but in a good way. It was almost like she tormented me on purpose sometimes and if you look into her eyes you pass out. She was funny as well I mean legitimately had a good sense of humor. Oh what am I even to do. I had my chances with some other girls before but it just did not feel right honestly as well as always think solekne is out to get me even if they aren’t. Well I’m more suspect of people then knowing for sure. I digress I should just stop and go to sleep and hopefully dream about her.

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D Crushes February 24, 2021 at 1:44 am 0 0