I have never wanted anybody to cease to exist before. I want someone to be dead, or simply cease to be; not because I hate them, quite the contrary, I want their life to end because it is full of chaotic suffering. Their life is in turmoil and plagued by substance addiction. It is hard to see someone I know surrounded by such chaotic negative energy. They cannot escape their self. Their decision-making is a step forward followed by several steps back. Degenerate behavior disgusts me. It is hard to witness such vile acts from them while they are under the effects of whatever substance they seek. I have never witnessed such a loss of control before. I do not understand the affliction of attraction to substances that sets someone back so far. I want it all to end for them, but rather as if they never existed. Some things cannot be undone. They need to cease to be.
CapriFriends August 09, 2019 at 3:58 am11