Umm I have been trying not to let this out ever
Umm, where do I start, I wanna get laid so goddamn badly, I have not had sex since the day I was born 27 years ago, and while I can attribute believing cooties was an actual thing, me being naive and oblivious to my first 16 years, followed by nearly 5 years to me thinking sex was filthy and disgusting, I’m full of sexual desire and drive, but I live in a town where attractive single girls looking for sexual stimulation is few and far between, and I can’t afford to move to a better place.I CAN afford to live in a worser place where rent is dirt cheap(The rent in this town is bronze cheap), so I’m stuck having to masturbate to porn which is in my honest opinion the saddest and most depressing way to kerb Sexual Desire, not to mention contrary to what I just stated, I hate porn and would go so far as to say porn should not have ever existed nor should continue to exist.
I mean if I’m being fair with myself, I’m no Hugh Hefner in the Sexually Desireable category or Brad Pitt in the looks category, and from my masturbation sessions, I’m wiped out after one round.
I know better than to want a woman purely for Sexual Enjoyment, I was raised to respect a womans right to her privacy and to treat women the same way I expect to be treated, and above all to never objectify a woman for any reason, and when not turned on, I hold these teachings in very high regard.
I feel like a bad person to desire only sexual enjoyment as opposed to something more long term fufilling, and objectifying women as an object for sexual pleasure, and I feel like if I somehow managed to score a One Night Stand, I would subconsiously be feeling guilty and awful knowing that I’m using a woman for the release of my own sexual desire, and after the One Night Stand be feeling even more awful that I had objectified a woman and used her like some tool.
I hate being Human, I hate Emotions, I hate feelings, I want to be more like Vulcans(Fictional Species from Star Trek, a species whom control and hide their emotions very well and live with logic and reasoning as their constant).
anonymous Miscellaneous May 11, 2020 at 6:29 pm 1 0
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I believe your problem is a matter of philosophy.
Why would it be knowing better to not seek a woman for sexual desire? Not all woman are the same, and I'm in a relationship now with a woman that loves when I dominate or "use" her passionately for pleasure.
Then you speak of respecting a woman's privacy. That sounds great on the surface and all, but if you like someone, you usually want to spend time with them. You have to be honest with people. Tell the ladies your intentions and speak of emotions and desires; women respond to all those messy feelings more than "privacy" (which might be interpreted as neglect).
You also mention treating woman the way you expect to be treated. That sounds like a Golden Rule methodology. That's a great idea.. But then don't you want a woman to just feck your brains out sometime? Yes. So it's not far-fetched to believe that's what they desire too.
Then you say "never objectify a woman for any reason". That is all kinds of wrong. That's called an absolute. Not every person is the same. Each woman is different and likes different treatment, so find a woman that doesn't want to be objectified if you don't want to objectify women. Oh, and women will objectify men, a lot; so that's a thing. Some of our most passionate moments are when I was honest with my girl. And to be honest, when we're in the throes of passion, we say all kinds of trash that sounds really screwed up. People are individuals (even women). LoL. You have to be honest, especially to yourself.
There's a movie called "Say Anything" starring John Cusack and Ione Skye. You should see that movie. It's a good film as far as helping to get your head in a better place to attract women.
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